To put it bluntly, recently I've been very depressed. But there we go, just another cliche 18-year-old most people would think. I hope I'm not just another of those cliches, I've tried my whole life to be myself, no matter how much that singles me out from others. Now I'm just trying to find out who I am. I know that parts cliche, everyone goes through this round about now.

A slight introduction to my life. I'm currently studying A level Biology and Chemistry. And AS ICT, which seems to be more work than both my A2 levels out together. These are stressful and difficult, no matter what image the media portrays. These damn things are nearly sending me to breaking point.

Coupled with the stress of trying to find a university. As I desperately want to move out next year and have a change of scenery, and a change of faces instead seeing the same ones day in day out for 6 and a half years.

As to what doesn't stress me. My boyfriend, and my friends. They are who and what I live for. They are the people who care about me and people I can rely on, and people who rely on me. Athough I claim my life won't be complete until I have a friend who is exactly like Gok Wan, its a lie. I do love my friends. Although next year they will all be gone. Except hopefully my boyfriend. Although for my friends, 2 are going on gap years, one might be moving to Cornwall and then the rest will be going to universities dotted around England and Wales. Which is a bit rubbish really, as I now really need to go to university this year, else I'll be left behind.

Its because I'm only doing 2 A levels. I was going to do 3 but I got an E in AS maths and well. Working that hard at something and only getting the lowest actual grade for it. It hardly seemed worth it.

So my personal life seems ok, when I have one and am not just stuck in my room like some sort of recluse. I live around 10 miles away from most of my friend and I can't drive yet. So I can't see them in the evenings. I hate getting the bus by myself at night time.

But yes. Enough of that. Lets talk about today. Today was a pretty good day as Tuesdays go. Got up, went to college. Did ICT lessons, skipped biology and went to Dan's, as he was poorly and off work so I decided to go look after him as him mum is on holiday. He's 20. He really should be able to look after himself. But yeah... I look after him. I like to look after people.

So I went round and we chilled out for a few hours. Watched the nonsense commonly known as daytime-TV, had a nap, went to Tescos, had dinner and then got shouted at by Dans younger brother Scott. For making fun of James, who is his 13 and his youngest brother. Even though James pokes fun of me constantly, and I never retalliate. And the one time I say anything to James and I get shouted at. I didn't stick up for myself. I didn't want to cause a scene and I do really want Dans family to like me. I mean I think they do. I've been with Dan for over a year now. And I do really make an effort. This just really pissed me off is all.